You know how sad your life is when the only thing that keeps you awake is coffee. The only thing that keeps you calm and creative is smoking a cigarette. The only person you cook for is your self. The amount of money you have in your wallet is 200 pesos to be spent on cigarettes that will make you at peace with your self.
I don't know where I am right now. I'm still figuring out how to solve and pick up the puzzle I ruined. I should be stressed with nothing but I have this feeling that there is something coming and I'm not ready to face it.
I don't even know if I'm pregnant or not. I don't even know if my boyfriend loves me. I don't even know if there would be people who would still love me in spite all the things I've done.
I'm desperate to feel comfort because a terrible wind strucked my home in which I'm having a hard time fixing. And of course I need God, but I don't know how to come back.
Screaming internally for help. Anyone? Please. I need help.
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