Near midnight

Thoughts are running through my veins. My mind can no longer handle them. I hate whatever is in front of me. I never dreamt of these things. I can't say anything. I'm in deep pain. I'm at the very bottom of the ocean right now. 

I hate you. Yes you. There are many reasons to leave you than to stay right beside you. I wish you knew that. But I can't do it, because I love you. I may not appear to suffer but I am dying inside. I cannot contain more pain at this moment for I shall embrace death if more comes. I wish you were sensitive enough to my needs and feelings, for forever youre in the state of cluelessness. You only notice a mistake but you never ever did anything to make it right. I wish you knew all of this. 

I still dont know how to continue this foolishness. I may say now, I can't live without you but I know for sure that this is only for today. Time will change, as well as feelings of the heart.