Courage is the ability to do something that frightens one. Courage is the strength to face the pain or grief. Courage is knowing there is almost certain failure but doing it anyway. Courage is the magic that turns dreams into reality. It is my strength, and never been a weakness. It is the reason why I'm still alive and have many opportunities coming. I don't care about people hating me. Hating is just an insecurity. They want to pull you down because they know that your way up from them.
"Courage is the story in which a strict philosophy teacher gives his class a difficult final exam for which they are given several sheets of paper to answer the question "what is courage?". While all the students begin to write, one student picks up their paper, walks to the front of the room, slams it on the teacher's desk and says "this is." before leaving the room. The student got the only 100 in the class."
Sometimes, the word "try", is the only answer to what we're asking for. Trying is always an option. You can never be force to try, it all depends on you. Everyday, we are given opportunities. We all need is just courage to try new and better things.
Destiny tested my courage. At first, I'm just a weak person that is afraid of anything, because I might lose everything with just one mistake. So, courage was never been in my vocabulary. But everything seemed so hard and everything is not in order. I talked to my self a lot of times, I'm so confused and I uttered to just give it a try. Why not, right? I just realized that, if it will stay, it will stay. There will be a time that all the people that walked in, will probably walk out. But there will be some that will just stay whatever happens. We all just need is courage to do things. Because courage is the only way of knowing the truth, and setting your self free from your limits.
Story of My Life.
Courage is the only thing that keeps me going.
--Angela Domingo :)
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Happiness
"I'm not perfect."
--"No one expects you to be."
Someday, someone will tell me that line. I mean, everything in this world is so much different in what I expected it to be. I'm not always as confident as I look. Reality has pushed me through my limits. Limits that are so impossible, and yet hard to believe. From my family to loved ones, loved ones to friends, and friends to strangers. They kept on forcing me, forcing me to be happy. But there ideal point of happiness is different from mine. "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond imperfections." Happiness is everything. Happiness isn't based on money and sometimes not even on what you're doing. Its about who your with, its about living with no regrets. It could never be based on selfishness and in what you like to see things through. You can never determine happiness. Happiness just comes through you, whenever you have no doubts about yourself and just feel contented about everything.
I really don't know what I'm talking about. Maybe this is what I needed, maybe this is what I'm longing for a long time already, happiness. I never expected this words coming in my mouth. I don't know what happiness really meant. But I hope, someday, someone would explain what it is to be happy, not just being happy, but to be contented at the same time.
"Happiness is like peeing in your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth."
--"No one expects you to be."
Someday, someone will tell me that line. I mean, everything in this world is so much different in what I expected it to be. I'm not always as confident as I look. Reality has pushed me through my limits. Limits that are so impossible, and yet hard to believe. From my family to loved ones, loved ones to friends, and friends to strangers. They kept on forcing me, forcing me to be happy. But there ideal point of happiness is different from mine. "Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond imperfections." Happiness is everything. Happiness isn't based on money and sometimes not even on what you're doing. Its about who your with, its about living with no regrets. It could never be based on selfishness and in what you like to see things through. You can never determine happiness. Happiness just comes through you, whenever you have no doubts about yourself and just feel contented about everything.
I really don't know what I'm talking about. Maybe this is what I needed, maybe this is what I'm longing for a long time already, happiness. I never expected this words coming in my mouth. I don't know what happiness really meant. But I hope, someday, someone would explain what it is to be happy, not just being happy, but to be contented at the same time.
"Happiness is like peeing in your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth."
Story of My Life
It doesn't cost anything to smile.
--Angela Domingo :)
Don't mind them
It's already 12:30 in the morning. I don't know what to do or what to say to the things that bothers me a lot. I have questions. Questions that are puzzled in my mind. Maybe a question that will set me free. I don't know, I'm really confused. Why can just people let go of the things that destroys them, and let the truth set them free. Without any thing to hold on, feels like a crap. Everything is so complicated. You can't control it. So, why make plans? If life will just destroy everything you had planned for a long time. Maybe, you're thinking that I don't know what I'm saying. But all I'm gonna say is "all of this will make sense, someday." I'm tired of people destroying me. It doesn't really make sense. And it does prove, that they're just insecure and just jealous of what you have and got. I mean, why make those nonsense stuff, if no one would listen? It just look useless. You're just wasting your time on someone who's not even listening.
I just want the truth, and nothing more. Even if it will hurt me, I'm gonna accept it someday. I want to experience the feeling of knowing the truth. The feeling, that you're living in a world full of bullshit, but you are still happy and contented. I know, I'm just wishing and hoping for something that would never happen. I mean, the world doesn't move like that. It moves in any way it wants. I learned that, it will never stop even if your world does. Its just a sad fact and reality for us, who dreams big.
Story of My Life.
Stay true, stay you.
--Angela Domingo. :)
I just want the truth, and nothing more. Even if it will hurt me, I'm gonna accept it someday. I want to experience the feeling of knowing the truth. The feeling, that you're living in a world full of bullshit, but you are still happy and contented. I know, I'm just wishing and hoping for something that would never happen. I mean, the world doesn't move like that. It moves in any way it wants. I learned that, it will never stop even if your world does. Its just a sad fact and reality for us, who dreams big.
Story of My Life.
Stay true, stay you.
--Angela Domingo. :)
Monday, May 16, 2011
Erased
"I hate getting flashbacks from things I don't want to remember."
I want to forget memories, not really forget, just remember them in the right time and for the best reason. I guess, everything makes sense. Even without a complete thought, we just tend to understand the whole of it. We were never smart, but were forever wise. Because we just let ourselves fall and we don't even care about it, even though we find ourselves trapped in a world full of selfishness. We see things, but we don't listen; Instead, make it just worst, for us to realize in the future that its just plain bullshit. There was nothing good, there was nothing to be happy about, just full of things we know we would regret.
Now, I realized. Every single tear I dropped didn't make sense. It's just foolishness. I cried at things that didn't matter, I cried at things that destroyed my own being, and I cried at things that changed me. I don't know myself anymore. I'm like a patient in a coma, just in bed for years and doesn't know what's happening in the world I'm living. I'm full bitterness. It happened couple of years ago, but I couldn't let go of it yet. It's just the most hurting thing I'd ever gone through. I'm still feeling the whole pain, because no one dared to help and fixed me. So, what will I do? Fixed myself? That's plain stupid. You couldn't fix yourself, because you can't see the damaged they had done to you. Everyday, I always remember every single pain I used to feel right at that moment. I wonder how I became strong and happy for the moment. I guess, I'm just living because I don't want to leave every single people that needed my help.
Every single day. I think of what life really means. I just want someone to listen, just listen, that's what I needed. But guess what, no one ever tried. I tried to control myself from preventing to die, every single day of this fucking life. I'm not yet fixed, I'm completely damaged. Nothing changed, just the fact that I become more weaker every single day. I want to hold on to someone, but all they tried to do is just let go of me. I'm tired of expecting too much. I don't want to feel that I have a chance of not being a lonely person. I had met different kinds of personalities already. Some are just like me, some are extraordinary and some are just not easy to figure out. They tried to touch my life, but they didn't tried to be a part of it or they didn't stayed too long. I have no one to run, I never ever didn't cried unto someone before. Because no one tried to give me shoulders to cry on. And if I'll trust them with these problems and shared everything about me, they'll just judge me and tell me how childish and selfish I am.
I'm still in-search of everything. But I feel like an outcast everywhere, I feel that I never belonged anywhere. I always pretend that I'm so happy that I have no problems. But the more I tried to keep it as a secret, the more I'm dying inside. I haven't got out of my shell yet. Because I'm afraid of different criticisms.
Story of My Life.
Better keep it as a secret, rather than to be judge without nothing to fight for.
I wish to be happy. Still enjoying my life to the fullest.
Lots of Love,
-- Angela. ;))
I want to forget memories, not really forget, just remember them in the right time and for the best reason. I guess, everything makes sense. Even without a complete thought, we just tend to understand the whole of it. We were never smart, but were forever wise. Because we just let ourselves fall and we don't even care about it, even though we find ourselves trapped in a world full of selfishness. We see things, but we don't listen; Instead, make it just worst, for us to realize in the future that its just plain bullshit. There was nothing good, there was nothing to be happy about, just full of things we know we would regret.
Now, I realized. Every single tear I dropped didn't make sense. It's just foolishness. I cried at things that didn't matter, I cried at things that destroyed my own being, and I cried at things that changed me. I don't know myself anymore. I'm like a patient in a coma, just in bed for years and doesn't know what's happening in the world I'm living. I'm full bitterness. It happened couple of years ago, but I couldn't let go of it yet. It's just the most hurting thing I'd ever gone through. I'm still feeling the whole pain, because no one dared to help and fixed me. So, what will I do? Fixed myself? That's plain stupid. You couldn't fix yourself, because you can't see the damaged they had done to you. Everyday, I always remember every single pain I used to feel right at that moment. I wonder how I became strong and happy for the moment. I guess, I'm just living because I don't want to leave every single people that needed my help.
Every single day. I think of what life really means. I just want someone to listen, just listen, that's what I needed. But guess what, no one ever tried. I tried to control myself from preventing to die, every single day of this fucking life. I'm not yet fixed, I'm completely damaged. Nothing changed, just the fact that I become more weaker every single day. I want to hold on to someone, but all they tried to do is just let go of me. I'm tired of expecting too much. I don't want to feel that I have a chance of not being a lonely person. I had met different kinds of personalities already. Some are just like me, some are extraordinary and some are just not easy to figure out. They tried to touch my life, but they didn't tried to be a part of it or they didn't stayed too long. I have no one to run, I never ever didn't cried unto someone before. Because no one tried to give me shoulders to cry on. And if I'll trust them with these problems and shared everything about me, they'll just judge me and tell me how childish and selfish I am.
I'm still in-search of everything. But I feel like an outcast everywhere, I feel that I never belonged anywhere. I always pretend that I'm so happy that I have no problems. But the more I tried to keep it as a secret, the more I'm dying inside. I haven't got out of my shell yet. Because I'm afraid of different criticisms.
Story of My Life.
Better keep it as a secret, rather than to be judge without nothing to fight for.
I wish to be happy. Still enjoying my life to the fullest.
Lots of Love,
-- Angela. ;))
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I got your back.
My thoughts speak too loud. I mean like a dynamite on a fisherman's hands, waiting for him to throw it in the water and ka-BOOM! It will explode. I'm like a kid lost in a place I lived for a thousand of years. I don't know what will I believe in, I don't know who to trust and I don't know if I'll take the first step of making a change. I'm so confused. I really don't know what's happening, could somebody tell me? I want to find the light that will lead me to what happiness will be like. I mean, I'm searching for the truth, that will be the answer to my question "why?"
I wonder what it be like, if this things didn't happen to me. Like, "is it really meant to happen?" Oh, I really don't know. darn it! It's like watching a TV commercial, and you don't know if your gonna believe in this products or not. Cause some are just made up, in order for them to have millions and billions of money. And that's what you call media or in other words, that's what you call "selfishness." Every single detail of it doesn't make sense, they just make sense because of the people who advertise them. Okay, enough small talking about TV commercials. Haha, had fun insulting commercials. Well, moving on to the truth that really matters the most, me. Haha, kidding. I mean the one that really matters, is me getting a chance to inspire everyone in just doing simple things. I know, it's impossible for a typical average girl like me. And I think, what would it be like if I inspire different people but I can't inspire my own self. Too ironic, right? But I'm making the most out of it. I mean, I'm being the person that could be open about something, no more masks to be shed all over my face, just pure me and nothing more. I want to be the shoulders, for those who need someone to cry on; I want to be a dictionary, for those in-search of the different meanings of life; I want to be the voice, for those who can't speak up; And, I want to be a best friend, for those who are alone and feel like their world is tearing apart.
I want to hear every single pain everyone is dealing with. I mean, I want to tell them how this pain become a part of the word "life."And how this sorrows make them happy and strong. All I want is just peace and harmony. Because, sometimes we forget this simple and little things that could make our lives different and more happier to live in.
Don't forget to love yourself.
XOXO
--Angela ;))
You just focused on the bad stuff when all you had to do was, let go of the past and keep moving forward.
-- Lewis (Meet the Robinsons)
I wonder what it be like, if this things didn't happen to me. Like, "is it really meant to happen?" Oh, I really don't know. darn it! It's like watching a TV commercial, and you don't know if your gonna believe in this products or not. Cause some are just made up, in order for them to have millions and billions of money. And that's what you call media or in other words, that's what you call "selfishness." Every single detail of it doesn't make sense, they just make sense because of the people who advertise them. Okay, enough small talking about TV commercials. Haha, had fun insulting commercials. Well, moving on to the truth that really matters the most, me. Haha, kidding. I mean the one that really matters, is me getting a chance to inspire everyone in just doing simple things. I know, it's impossible for a typical average girl like me. And I think, what would it be like if I inspire different people but I can't inspire my own self. Too ironic, right? But I'm making the most out of it. I mean, I'm being the person that could be open about something, no more masks to be shed all over my face, just pure me and nothing more. I want to be the shoulders, for those who need someone to cry on; I want to be a dictionary, for those in-search of the different meanings of life; I want to be the voice, for those who can't speak up; And, I want to be a best friend, for those who are alone and feel like their world is tearing apart.
I want to hear every single pain everyone is dealing with. I mean, I want to tell them how this pain become a part of the word "life."And how this sorrows make them happy and strong. All I want is just peace and harmony. Because, sometimes we forget this simple and little things that could make our lives different and more happier to live in.
Don't forget to love yourself.
XOXO
--Angela ;))
You just focused on the bad stuff when all you had to do was, let go of the past and keep moving forward.
-- Lewis (Meet the Robinsons)
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